whatever. i don t give a damn.

i think the creator of humans forgotten something.

The creator forgot to took away the feelings on how human judge you by first impression.

once you got a first impression, you will never change it. like for example, you see a beautiful girl, and all would coo she would be a nice girl, kind , generous, just by her pretty face. you know how fucking irritating is that?

the second thing creator forgotten is to remind humans that they make mistakes.

when you made a mistake in front of everyone, they will start judging you. HAHA, SHE IS SO CLUMSY. HUH, DON T LA. SHE WILL RUIN IT. HEY THIS GIRL, DON T TALK TO HER.
i mean like wtf is wrong with people nowdays? had they never came across the word FORGIVEN? had they never across the word SECOND CHANCE? okays. this is getting on my nerves.


no, i am not saying that THE CREATOR is the blame to the problems of humans. i am just disgusted at my ownself. why is it i have to care about what people think about me. why is it i want to be somebody? why is it i can t be myself? is it because nobody like `myself` ? i can t believe i just let her tell me like that. what actually provoke me when she said, ` jingyun you know what i don t like you, is you react very fast when people say bad things to you`. wth. then how would you react? i mean hello. your first reaction is like wtf. you would be thinking, what the hell would they say bad things about. then when i ask her would you react fast. she could only reply ` i dunno` obviously i was quite pissed la. okays wait. i admit it is my fault. it is my fault that things turn out this way. but why is it people only focus on your weakness? i mean hercules had his achilles heel. i dunno i dunno i dunno i dunno. i am so sick of this. so annoyed.

i thought i could shake off the past memories.
but a scar would always be a scar.

and i have reflected.
actually i am not talented at all.


what was i thinking?